During a conversation with someone today, the conversation turned to the person’s blog and that I should make one. I jumped on wordpress and realized – I already have a blog which I started in 2010! This is only my second posting! So much has changed in the past 3 years. Now an empty nester I am trying to focus on the LIFE part of the worklife balance scale. As I try to take better care of myself by eating better and exercising, I also find that taking care of myself is harder than it seems after you have spent your life taking care of others. It takes effort to leave work at a regular time to go to the gym or to plan to go out with friends or to join a new group through Meet Up. Oh, I realize that it takes 21 days to make an activity a habit. It’s also about saying no when you would usually say yes and putting yourself first to find love and joy. That’s my goal – to be healthy, lose weight, find love and joy in life, to not grow old alone, to share this great world with someone else with the same values and thinking.
For a long time I focused on how I wanted peace in my life. That was after a rough marriage that did not have peace. I have achieved the peace and now it is time for the love and joy. Gets me to thinking – no one other than my family and friends loves me now. Will I ever fall in love again? Will someone fall in love with me? I believe at least two people fell in love with me in my life – yes, one was my ex – although the love was not a healthy love and doesn’t really count. The other love was when we were both so young yet we were in love or so we thought for awhile. Then choices we both made led us in other directions down a path that moved farther apart as the years went by. A few years ago we found one another again on facebook or twitter and were in touch for awhile. As a happily married family man his commitment to his life overrode anything that was the past. I realized that all my life I wanted him to pick me, that he was the yin to my yang, the one I felt real and comfortable with, yet it was not meant to be, he didn’t pick me. Not sure how we got to here in today’s blog. Have to end on a more positive note. Here goes –
Every day I am thankful I woke up and am alive. I am thankful for the blessings in my life. Every day I go forward with a positive spirit that this is going to be a great day, something wonderful will happen today. And, that is what keeps me going to find the LIFE in the worklife balance scale.